A New Year

I have found with time that my mind seems to decrease rather than increase with the intake of "knowledge." This knowledge that we fondly refer to as time goes on appears quite empty to me. I am now a sophomore in college. I suppose I should hold this with great prestige and honor. I have exceeded my expectations in everything. However, now my expectations are limitless. I do have one concrete expectation for myself. This is not a new years resolution because those promises disappear like cotton candy which touches the tongue with a taste of heaven only to fade with no memory. My requirement is to blog. Instead of being concerned about the eloquent phrasing and intelligent discussion I should be able to breath with ease at the stage in my life, I will just place me on the page. I cannot imagine many with find my daily life to be of any interest or worth. No, this is an obligation to myself. Maybe in the future I will look back and smile at my naive thinking. Or perhaps, someday I will look back and see a girl who was wise beyond her years who grew increasingly lost in the senselessness of this world. A year ago I was confident in the girl I thought I was. I was loud and forceful of the fact that I could not be contained. In a year, I discovered I was the opposite. Feeling strong and stable, I quickly became weak and shakeable, as does every individual finding strength from their own haughty stamina. Too much has changed to describe on a page, so I will just begin anew. My name is Marlise. Who am I? I am a child of God. Beyond this fact, I haven't a clue as to who I am.